I am afraid of failing.
The word alone is scary.
I'm afraid of failing in life.
Failing to do simple things
such as doing taxes, school, being an adult.
I'm afraid of failing as a daughter.
I'm afraid of letting my parents down and
being a disappointment.
How am I fighting this?
I'm going to college.
I'm studying until I can't anymore.
I'm staying up late at night doing papers.
I'm staying in the library for hours at a time.
I've started up a study group for those who
are struggling around me.
If I can't help others,
then I can't help myself.
I'm budgetting my paychecks.
I have a job that pays minimum wage
but gets gas in my car and food on the table.
I'm trying my best to be an accomplishment
rather than a disappoint.
I want my parents to see me and
all that I do.
I want them to see that their little girl
is doing great things.
Although I live with the constant anxiety
that I am going to fail,
At least I'm trying to
do something about it.