Facade (Real. Thanks.)

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Can I join in?
Can I be part of your little niche?
Can I join in?
Can I feel like I'm part of a new subset?
I don't want to be just another person.
I don't want to be me.
I want to be part of the scenery.
Be happy when really, all I am is just an empty shell withering off, waiting to die.

My facade brings about through chemistry.
Through a lack of identity.

Can I mimic?
Can I copy your actions?
Can I mimic?
I want to feel like I'm part of a new subset.
I don't want to be just a clean person.
I don't want to be me.
I want to do what it takes to fit in - 
look happy when I all I am is a slobbering, sore-ridden drunk bastard.

My facade brings about through dependency.
Through my lack of identtiy.

Can I be changed?
Can I shed this identity my mind gave me?
Can I be changed?
Please let the Cartesian mind-body relation be purely metaphysical.
I don't want to be part of a niche.
I don't want to be me.
I want people to like me because I'm normal - 
look content when I question the basic building blocks of my identity, from my sex to my desires.

My facade brings about through therapy.
Through this lack of identity.

Can I fix myself?
Can I let go of trying to fit in?
Can I fix myself?
I can't keep up these facades any longer.
I don't want to fit in.
I want to be me.

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