Everything I'd wish To be and Everything I am not

Thu, 05/22/2014 - 19:00 -- Alyra


I have faith in a God

      But He has never spoken to me


I have held on to the idea of love

      But love has never kept me and no one has ever aimlessly loved Alyra,


I believe  Freedom is most important

     But I have never felt free, and I am always enchained by the opinion of others and so I've never been myself


I know self-love is powerful

But find I critique and study every character flaw and evey flaw in my reflection


I think optimism is key to sustaining any situation

   But find I am the most pessimistic person I know


I know sinning is bad

   And still I weigh the option of wrong and right in my head always 


I'd wish to be happy but find I self-pity 

 and I am always the hardest on myself


And so always I am at odds with what I'd wish to be and everything I am not.





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