I wonder if they lost an ounce of sleep
Or worried if you had any food to eat
Did they even shed a tear?
Longing and wishing you were near
When pains of poverty rapped at the door
Did they pray to offer you so much more?
Do they live with the daily shame?
Burdening you to carry their name
Haunted by the endless regret
Of their children, they sought to forget
Meanwhile, Mom stood to the side
A costly decision ignoring her pride
Admitting her imperfections in many ways
Distancing you from all the craze.
Karma persistent, steady, hard at work
The heart now numb, the mind berserk
By the loveless actions shown by all
Today I choose freedom from the mental thrall
Suckling at my heart, body, mind, and soul
Regrets may twinkle shame might flash
White knuckle through, teeth will gnash
As I quietly turn and silently pray
That you are all safe and all is okay
Hope will remain that you might find
A moment from your life’s busy grind
To call and let me hear your voice
But if you don’t...sadly that is your choice
I will be here as long as I’m blessed
Before the Lord puts me to rest
My final pray I wish you to know
Before it’s time for me to go
“I pray I could erase every single hurt
Before they lay me down in the dirt”
With Love, I leave you this bittersweet ado
Of how my heart is stained, empty, numb, and blue.
Brokenhearted by the love I will always hold for you
"Mending the Ego. The Journey Continues..."