Eating air
The sight of food makes her gag
She hears the echos of others chewing and crunching
But all she can here is the fat jokes, and how shes too heavy to be a alive
How she becomes a stick but no ones knows how unhealthy she does it
Thank goodness muscle weighs more than fat or she would have been caught
Caught not eating
Caught starving herself to keep her body slim
Caught working out on concussions and about to pass out but forces herself to keep going
She eats one meal a day. A half of the meal and a half air
she says "I'm full"
Its not her stomach thats full its her anxiety
She fears the shaming and the bulge of her stomach
But then... She gives up
She stops pleasing others, and lets herself eat
Her body is shocked and doesnt hold much but its growing
She is her own critic
shes learning to not listen to her voice that is screaming to stop
Screaming all the insults and hidden jokes that have been ingrained in her head
she won't give into the voice. Not this time