Dreams of Despair
Fear
A safe zone.
My safe zone.
Like an exhausted shell, of an old aged Crab
protecting itself from all the bad things..
Restricting, retaining,
and retreating.
Always holding itself back.
Always,
holding,
Me,
Back.
Fear.
A companion, my companion.
Like a best friend I never had,
always in my ear,
whispering...
“Don’t do it, it will go
—bad.”
And I believed it.
So Wholeheartedly, that Fear, was the only thing I had.
It was so easy to Believe in Fear! But so hard to believe in ME...
My body,
My Life
and
Dreams.
I wanted to dance.
I wanted to eat Healthy.
And I wanted
To become,
Me.
Me, as in the person
who always stayed
in her shell, isolated from her
own
little
world.
We’ve all been there.
Lost,
On an empty dark road, with nothing but a red stop sign,
telling you to not go any further,
to become one with the darkness, the night, and the ghosts
to make you their slave,
to make you suffer.
But then, ahead of you, is a great
mystery,
that you will only be able to find
if you try...
to Believe,
that Fear is the enemy,
not your friend, not your safety
but instead,
a sweet lullaby,
that sings itself to you every night,
with
Deep, heavy, Sorrows and Lies.
So believe,
so you can become,
so you can
Be
Anything,
You want to be.