I dont understand mom what i did , The heart felt pain already served a life time bid , And its not any different now then it was when i was kid , Mom why dont you love me im your son , growing up confused with out any real guidance None , You did show me one life lesson never be a half ass parent to my own son , I now understand that it wasnt my fault , All i know I was only doing what i was taught , So i ran the streets without any care , But its your words Mom that my heart just cant bear , Why do you think i always got in so many fights like i was aloud , Mom I felt like it was only time i made you proud , I have this fear of hearing your words thruna black cloud , always Making me feel worthless please tell me why , A mom should love me not wish i die , Even after all that you still dont even try , It bothers me that you didnt want me , Im still a boy who needs answers from his mom to be free , So thats why im never leaving you be I will never know what a mothers love is and that makes me cry , I no longer need you but it would be nice if you would try , I write this with no more bad feelings , My heart just needs some real healing , thanks for all the good thinks i pretended like we had , I loved them even if i made them up kinda sad , Just so you know i took any intention i could get , Good or bad didnt matter it didnt have to fit... If having me always made you mad or sad , why didn't you just send me to live with my dad , My mommy issues were a nightmare but im awake