Don't get to close

or you will see past the mask

I wear out in the world

that hides how terrified i really am.

Sometimes I just want to be left alone

to mentally meticulously examine my flaws

 

Don't get to close

Because I will desperately latch on

for i have a voracious appetite

that can only be replete with your attention

I will pour most of me into you

but i will badger you until you reassure me

that trusting you is the right thing to do

 

Don't get to close

I'll be passive aggressive when I'm hurt or upset

I will mute the phone and cry to myself

when I feel like you are sick of me

sometimes i act off of my emotions 

or I will think things through logically

the later makes me seem cold and heartless

but I'm only trying to hide how much I care

 

Don't get to close

I'll have to let you in

I'm afraid that if I do

and you want out it will just devastate me

I wont trust my heart to house anyone else

I will place the blame on place of residence, not the inhabitant

my insecurities will become painfully obvious

 

Don't get to close

I am a host of contradictions

keeping people at a distance makes me lonely

but getting to close means there is a greater chance of falling for you

and falling is the scariest thing imaginable.