Disdainful Past

Mon, 11/12/2012 - 15:28 -- jxyooj

Life these days are always about martial strife,
But no one gives a damn about anything until it's them.
I don't think you care about me,
because all you think of is trying to get attention from everything.

It ain't funny how you rumor, making people sick with a tumor.
If you never did love me, why'd you ever keep bothering? People these days gotta learn respect, unless if ya'll want to be fakes and get reject.
If life ain't literal, it's all political, making it illogical and irrational.
You want to get all religious, I'ma tell you you're talking crap and bogus.

Because we were once close and near, what the hell am I doing here!
If I'm the enemy, why don't you just kill me?
If it's true that everyone seems to need me,
then why does everyone treat me like the public enemy?
Maybe it would have been better if you never got to know
anything because all that ever happens in life is sadness and hatred to me.

Dad's so mad, so bad that he thinks he can treat me as though he were all rad.
Tell me the crap trying to brainwash my mind saying
"I'm nothing without him" even though I'm fine.
Never did care, life's never fair.
A freakin' brute, nothing but chicken crap on my boot.
Have you even seen mother? Don't you ever care for any other?
I know you wouldn't cuz you were never a dad so you couldn't.
All you ever did was help yo'self, but your mistake was you needed to check yo'self!

Lots of people tell me I can get through this cuz I'm smart.
I just keep saying 'That don't matter when I lost my heart.'
If being good is so damn hard, how long am the hell I'm supposed to ward?

Eventually people think I'ma freakin psycho,
then they treating me so bad I know they're so low.
Those people are so full of themselves why don't you just
go away and screw yourselves!

They were wrong when they said dreams last...
Maybe all those fools were never real.
I guess I shouldn't worry; it's the past.

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