its not the usual kind of exhausted.
i dont feel heavy, like ten pound barbells are in my eye sockets
or like my blood is molten steel instead.
no, my arms are not limp and lifeless
and my legs are not aching in discomfort.
no, its not heavy, in fact....
i feel weightless
like i am a feather floating abut the clouds
or a raft swiftly and smoothly
gliding across the tops of swells.
my lungss expand and contract
like the wind itself is flowing in and out of my mouth
and i feel clean, but cleaner than clean
i feel dry and crisp, like an autumn leaf
this is not the heavy kind of exhausted ive felt for so long
maybe im really changing