Developing Madness
They say that madness is permanent
That it’s like signing a contract with the devil
There’s no way out.
But I don’t think that’s the case.
Madness comes in waves.
It’s like the ocean tide
Licking the sand as it says hello
It comes in quick
But it leaves slow.
To develop madness is to develop anger
But it’s anger that takes you by surprise
It’s powerful and pervasive
The way it takes over every part of you
And leaves you hollow when it’s gone.
I thought I knew what madness felt like
I thought I understood what it meant
I thought it was something that I could work past
But I guess I was wrong.
Maybe that’s the one thing I got wrong
Maybe madness is permanent
Maybe it will forever be an unwelcome guest
Something that I have to fight everyday
And I will
Developing madness is learning to fight
It’s trying to win a sword fight
When you only have a spoon
It’s losing yourself
So I will keep fighting until the day
I can rightfully say
Developing madness
Didn’t overtake my light