A delirious soul I am,

Constantly yearning for the love I can never attain,

Why must my heart ache for those who it will never reach?

Is it my reminder from God that I have done so much wrong I will never have that good in my life?

Or is it my test to see how much pain I can endure?

In my own ways, I still feel like a little girl with a crush on the cute boy in class.

But somehow, that crush has continued onto my adult years.

Will I ever know happiness in the form of love?

Will I ever get the person I want?

Will I ever be able to be happy with him?

I just want to know.