Defeated
As this blood drains from my body
I'll think of all the people who wronged me
That told me my life isn't worth living
Depression is losing your self control
Taking your foot off that pedal
Skidding across the road ready to let go
Of all the things that are killing you ever so slowly
Its walking alone in a world full of people
Looking for someone to see the pain that flows through your body
Its reverberating
Bouncing from wall to wall
And this world to me feels so small
I'm contained
restricted forced to live this life that isn't worth it and its encrypted
these words are wounds that will never heal entirely
Depression is forcing yourself to wake up everyday
already disappointed that yesterday wasn't your last day
That you have to go through yet another day
and it will be another bad day
Depression is speaking aloud to the crowd but somehow you are never heard
This voice of mine has so much to say but people seem to be so blind to the signs
They choose not to listen
to not pay attention
to the lessons that will be learned
that today will be my turn
Go run and Tell my parents that today is the day that I will finally be heard
That They will finally see the real me
full of destruction and corruption that they helped arise in me
this anger is a forcefield
And its sending me to self destruction
Depression is watching the hours pass you by but you're still stuck in that time
Stuck in that place
trapped
and everything and everyone is holding you back
Depression is letting the demons win
Letting the darkness take over you
drowning you
dragging you down that pit and it seems endless
Until you finally let go
Until you finally let the world swallow your soul your heart whole
And you are no more