Death of Waiting
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The death of waiting,
a vice grip on my chest denies me the option to breathe,
my wrists bound in cuffs of limitation,
feet stuck in frustration,
mind set on fascination but body tied,
a cell with five sides I see the sky,
walls just too high to climb I see the sky,
watch blissful people hanging on stars,
a feast on the moon, blessed on the crest of the clouds,
I see crowds together, all crowned in round suns
throngs bobbing in sobbing songs
flocks of shock and excited wings
I grasp the air with lungs unsung
Gasp for a chance at a voice at a noise
a thin stream of air, an unclean unfair
a moment until moment next,
I wear down
if only to tear down myself,
to tear down this cage of my hate and my rage
a skull under pressure to do but to wait
a deep brittle cracking from all I am lacking
attacking a clock when I know I am wrong
truly wasting myself away in my cage
in a fight against blessings I hide from my sight
and the grip I allow to keep me from flight.