I can't believe it, it's so hard to ignore.
The pain I'm feeling, knowing that you won't walk back through that door.
When it was just yesterday that I saw you.
Us just talking, and me not having a clue.
Not realizing how fast your life would be taken away
Gosh when it was only yesterday..

It breaks my heart knowing our last talk didn't end well.
It caused us to fight.. It caused us to yell.
I always knew that my last memory of you would always haunt me.
I always knew, and so now I see..
I see the pain on your face as you walked away.
So much sadness and disappointment.. so much dismay.

I was so angered by the way you forgot about me and loved your cars, that I just didn't care anymore.
I gave you emotional scars.
And I know those scars must have really hurt you.
I know this only because.. Well you hurt me too.
It was the kind of hurt that was so strong it kept us apart.
It went straight through my chest, right through my heart.

And through all the hate and process of this all..
I don't remember the last time you even saw Jacobi, I just don't recall.
And that is one of the most worst feelings ever.
Knowing that the next time our little boy would see his daddy again.. Would be never.
He didn't deserve this, he didn't have a say.
And now he must suffer every year on Father's day.

While all the other little boys will have fun and seem happy..
He'll have no one there to hold him, no one to call Daddy.
And it's such a shame because you were such a great dad..
Even though we had hard times, even though things got bad.

If I could go back in time with the things I know now, I would.
I would go back in time to the point where everything between us was good.
And I would show you how much I really, really cared.
How much I loved you, and all the memories we shared.
'Cause I loved you so much Christian, and I hope you at least knew that.
You put up with me so well, even when I was a brat.

I was your Bon Bon Bunnie, and you were my Raccoon.
We had the most ridiculous nicknames, especially our Buncoon.
But we didn't care, we loved the relationship we had.
And that's why on nights like this.. I get kinda sad.
I feel sad because there will never be another person just like you.
From your hard-headed personality, right down to your shoes.

And I'm not even sure if I'd want there to be.
I don't want anyone to replace you.. I don't want you to become just a memory.
And through all of my tears and all of my cries,
I just know you are looking down on me with your adorable sweet eyes.
So please take care oh Christian, my Love.. For I know one day I'll be with you, and our Father, in Heaven above..