Dear Mr.Donner

On Father's day a couple years past

I didn't have anymore tears

left for you

this of course

wasn't the case during my younger days

which you already

No

I guess you don't know.

you don't know how on your birthday

I would sit in my closet,doors closed and sing my heart out.

I would bake you a cake and blow out the candles

using your wish

begging God to bring us together,.

and now I wonder,

why you can request to play Games rather than

face facts

David.

I wasn't wanted, but still I was

covered by blood and you bailed

Leaving a much bigger man to

clean up the mess that openly

poured out  of the hole you left in

my chest .

so what now,

a stalemate ?

Are we frozen in this uncomfortable silence ?

silence.

for years I have heard nothing from you.

not a letter with a word, nor a call with a voice

NEVER PERSONAL.

we have never had a personal relationship

and I’m the only one who seems to see the problem.

you

you like a black hole sucking the

joy that could have been my eternity

you like a cracked mirror

distorting my forever image

you a bad dream awakened to reality

you.

you just can't seem to see me.

right in your face,

I am

no longer swaddled by the arms of a protector who did not protect

Hear me

My voice now can  change in an

octave only adults can perceive.

why don't we grow together?

you father of mine.

I have craved to one day  have my

face to face with the Donner.

not to spit on his

but to announce my right’s

I've made it!

without you I  have become

women.

see chances come and go and

our time is limited with small spaces in between,

And now as I pour out my soul on

paper I wonder what you will

decide.

But know the consequences to

face are directed by a one way sign

and it would really suck to never have truly had me in your life.

I said it would really suck to never have truly had me in your life.