`Dear Dad

 

Dear Dad,

Why did you never come to see me

Why did you disappear from my life

Why did you hurt me 

Why do you keep things in

 

When I ask a question you just say

“It’s complicated I will explain when you're older”

But when is that

Never?

 

When you say you didn’t mean it

How am I supposed to trust you 

I barely know you

 

You missed my first word

My first steps

You missed the first time I fell off my bike

You missed every one of my birthdays

 

When you say your sorry 

How am I supposed to trust you

 

You were never there

You weren’t there to hold my hand on the first day of preschool

You weren't there on my 5th-grade graduation

I know you say you want to get to know me

But it's too late

That ship has sailed

 

You weren't there when I read my first word

And when I smashed my face into my 1st birthday cake

You were never there

 

How am I supposed to start a relationship now

When I am 13

I have grown 

 

You have given me so much pain

How do I know you won't do it again

Hurt me as you did then

 

Next time maybe I will be ready for when you hurt me

I have Friends and Family 

That don't fail me 

like you did

I know you say you want to get to know me

But it's too late

That ship has sailed