17, no father, no hope

Years of pain, of lies, of abuse suddenly come out

Drowning, it was like a game of tug of war and I was the rope

16, running a race, holding up a home

how naieve to think I was enough to make him want to stay

He was there in the flesh but I was alone 

15, 14,13 

12, does daddy even love me?

Of course he does, Hes the father, the man, he doesnt have a choice

I am his princess I say as I join my stuffed animals for tea

11,10,9

8, I compete for his love against an unknown villian

turns out the opponent liked to wear less clothes than I did

I am his princess, she was his queen who would one day kill him

7,6,5

4, Daddy was too busy watching girls dance across a compueter screen

he never noticed my dresses ,

he never heard me, regardless if it was a wisper or a scream

4,3,2,1 

0 was not the start of my life 

0 was the start of my death

the day you looked in my back and decided you wanted to place a knife

Daddy why didnt you ever want to dance with me?