crying out,

reaching out,

what is trying about,

holding in doubt,

the pain begins to  rain  out,

and the one and only frienemy starts to talk,

her words like chalk,

gulping it in and spiting it back out,

leaving a trail in the mind,

the hurtful kind,

crying,

trying ,

dying,

"i'm fine" lying,

are you there,

does anyone ever care,

why do others just look laugh and stare,

why is this wickedly beautiful world so unfair,

is there a future for me where,

getting through life is like a challenge like the hardest dare,