Anytime I try to convince myself

On why I should stay 

It’s because I don’t want to hurt you 

I don’t want to cause you the pain

We also have so many dreams 

Of what are future life will be

I convince myself to stay 

Out of fear of not having

You to help me live out my dreams 

But I have to realize 

If I keep having to 

convince myself to stay 

If I keep wanting to leave 

But my only reasons are 

The fear of hurting you

And the fear of losing our future 

And the fear of being alone 

Then maybe right now 

We aren’t meant to be 

Maybe right now 

I have to face my fears 

I have to lean into the unknown

I have to find out 

How to live on my own 

How to live for myself 

And the future is always unknown

So who knows,

Maybe we will still have

The same dreams of the future

And maybe we may 

Be Together again some day 

Start all over this journey of love

But stronger this time 

For both of us will have grown 

But staying right now 

After the past few years 

Constantly being unsure

If whether to stay or not 

It makes me feel terrible 

That I can never fully 

Be committed to you 

It’s not fair to do that to you 

I have so much growing 

To do on my own 

And yes I can grow with you 

But not to the same extent 

And I don’t want to end up 

With the possible regret

Regret of never taking the risk

To learn to live life on my own

 

I love you darling

I forever will

I just don’t think either of us

Are fully ready to be together

May we both grow on our own

And we will see 

what the future will hold

Maybe we will come 

back together as friend 

Or maybe a stronger relationship 

The future is so unknown

But all I know is that 

As of right now,

I need to let you go