Confused Love

Mon, 09/02/2013 - 20:29 -- Raqkelz

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I remember when we first met

The summer before my first high school year

Can’t seem to remember the exact day, but the month and year I’ll never forget

That year so long ago has finally brought me to cry my last tear

At first, distance didn’t mean a thing to me or him

A phone call every night was all we ever needed

Wasn’t worried about what we had coming to an end

Because it was to God that I prayed and pleaded

Asking for my relationship to last

I knew that this was what I wanted. I wanted him, no, I wanted us

But what I wanted so badly has become my past

I clearly mistaken our love for devious lust

Understand we never had a title, but he was mine

The times we did try dating were the times that failed

I was always there for him though, ignoring all the curves in my heart line

Whatever he needed and couldn’t get was mailed

The time grew old. I was ready to settle down

I would ask him for that title, but he would always so “no”

All the temptation that he was around

Was my first sign I needed to leave, but I didn’t want to go

I was so used to him; he started to become the only one I knew

The only one I wanted to talk to, he soon knew me inside and out

But his heart remained the same size, while mine grew

The sex fooled me; too young to know what lust was about

It didn’t bother me a bit though, because I wasn’t aware

I was feeding him with his favorite meal, sex

What he did, I did; it only seemed fair

It always started from the sweetest kisses on the neck

When we did it, we did it for hours

This is what made me believe what we had was love

Sometimes I’d look to him, as if he was some kind of high power

I looked up to him as if he was the man above

The years past, and he still wasn’t committed

I wanted the world to know that he was my man

But there were other girls involved, which he never admitted

They came in all colors: white, black, and tan

Being so far away, he couldn’t always get his meal from me

That’s where the pain comes into this relation

He did to them what he did to me when it was me he couldn’t see

I always believed every word he said; not once did I take caution

Weak was how you could define my young soul

When I did find out what he did, I always gave him another chance

I knew he didn’t care. He was one out of many in the pack of dholes

But it hurt, as if he stabbed through my heart with a lance

A few more years past, and I finally gave in

I learned he didn’t really love like he said he did

He didn’t want me like I wanted him. He loved my sin

Leaving him was the hardest thing ever. It was something I would always forbid

It took four years to learn that his actions speak louder than words

Forgive me Lord, for I was so dumb and naïve

The thought of him not loving me was so blurred

In my world, he was the Adam to my Eve

It’s over now. We ended it

No more him, no more me, no more us

Just to make it worse, he fixed his lips to call me a bitch

Never in my life again will I confuse my love for lust

I remember when we first met

The summer before my first high school year

Can’t seem to remember the exact day, but the month and year I’ll never forget

That year so long ago has finally brought me to cry my last tears

At first, distance didn’t mean a thing to me or him

A phone call every night was all we ever needed

Wasn’t worried about what we had coming to an end

Because it was to God that I prayed and pleaded

Asking for my relationship to last

I knew that this was what I wanted. I wanted him, no, I wanted us

But what I wanted so badly has become my past

I clearly mistaken our love for devious lust

Understand we never had a title, but he was mine

The times we did try dating were the times that failed

I was always there for him though, ignoring all the curves in my heart line

Whatever he needed and couldn’t get was mailed

The time grew old. I was ready to settle down

I would ask him for that title, but he would always so “no”

All the temptation that he was around

Was my first sign I needed to leave, but I didn’t want to go

I was so used to him; he started to become the only one I knew

The only one I wanted to talk to, he soon knew me inside and out

But his heart remained the same size, while mine grew

The sex fooled me; too young to know what lust was about

It didn’t bother me a bit though, because I wasn’t aware

I was feeding him with his favorite meal, sex

What he did, I did; it only seemed fair

It always started from the sweetest kisses on the neck

When we did it, we did it for hours

This is what made me believe what we had was love

Sometimes I’d look to him, as if he was some kind of high power

I looked up to him as if he was the man above

The years past, and he still wasn’t committed

I wanted the world to know that he was my man

But there were other girls involved, which he never admitted

They came in all colors: white, black, and tan

Being so far away, he couldn’t always get his meal from me

That’s where the pain comes into this relation

He did to them what he did to me when it was me he couldn’t see

I always believed every word he said; not once did I take caution

Weak was how you could define my young soul

When I did find out what he did, I always gave him another chance

I knew he didn’t care. He was one out of many in the pack of dholes

But it hurt, as if he stabbed through my heart with a lance

A few more years past, and I finally gave in

I learned he didn’t really love like he said he did

He didn’t want me like I wanted him. He loved my sin

Leaving him was the hardest thing ever. It was something I would always forbid

It took four years to learn that his actions speak louder than words

Forgive me Lord, for I was so dumb and naïve

The thought of him not loving me was so blurred

In my world, he was the Adam to my Eve

It’s over now. We ended it

No more him, no more me, no more us

Just to make it worse, he fixed his lips to call me a bitch

Never in my life again will I confuse my love for lust

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