Confused Love
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I remember when we first met
The summer before my first high school year
Can’t seem to remember the exact day, but the month and year I’ll never forget
That year so long ago has finally brought me to cry my last tear
At first, distance didn’t mean a thing to me or him
A phone call every night was all we ever needed
Wasn’t worried about what we had coming to an end
Because it was to God that I prayed and pleaded
Asking for my relationship to last
I knew that this was what I wanted. I wanted him, no, I wanted us
But what I wanted so badly has become my past
I clearly mistaken our love for devious lust
Understand we never had a title, but he was mine
The times we did try dating were the times that failed
I was always there for him though, ignoring all the curves in my heart line
Whatever he needed and couldn’t get was mailed
The time grew old. I was ready to settle down
I would ask him for that title, but he would always so “no”
All the temptation that he was around
Was my first sign I needed to leave, but I didn’t want to go
I was so used to him; he started to become the only one I knew
The only one I wanted to talk to, he soon knew me inside and out
But his heart remained the same size, while mine grew
The sex fooled me; too young to know what lust was about
It didn’t bother me a bit though, because I wasn’t aware
I was feeding him with his favorite meal, sex
What he did, I did; it only seemed fair
It always started from the sweetest kisses on the neck
When we did it, we did it for hours
This is what made me believe what we had was love
Sometimes I’d look to him, as if he was some kind of high power
I looked up to him as if he was the man above
The years past, and he still wasn’t committed
I wanted the world to know that he was my man
But there were other girls involved, which he never admitted
They came in all colors: white, black, and tan
Being so far away, he couldn’t always get his meal from me
That’s where the pain comes into this relation
He did to them what he did to me when it was me he couldn’t see
I always believed every word he said; not once did I take caution
Weak was how you could define my young soul
When I did find out what he did, I always gave him another chance
I knew he didn’t care. He was one out of many in the pack of dholes
But it hurt, as if he stabbed through my heart with a lance
A few more years past, and I finally gave in
I learned he didn’t really love like he said he did
He didn’t want me like I wanted him. He loved my sin
Leaving him was the hardest thing ever. It was something I would always forbid
It took four years to learn that his actions speak louder than words
Forgive me Lord, for I was so dumb and naïve
The thought of him not loving me was so blurred
In my world, he was the Adam to my Eve
It’s over now. We ended it
No more him, no more me, no more us
Just to make it worse, he fixed his lips to call me a bitch
Never in my life again will I confuse my love for lust
I remember when we first met
The summer before my first high school year
Can’t seem to remember the exact day, but the month and year I’ll never forget
That year so long ago has finally brought me to cry my last tears
At first, distance didn’t mean a thing to me or him
A phone call every night was all we ever needed
Wasn’t worried about what we had coming to an end
Because it was to God that I prayed and pleaded
Asking for my relationship to last
I knew that this was what I wanted. I wanted him, no, I wanted us
But what I wanted so badly has become my past
I clearly mistaken our love for devious lust
Understand we never had a title, but he was mine
The times we did try dating were the times that failed
I was always there for him though, ignoring all the curves in my heart line
Whatever he needed and couldn’t get was mailed
The time grew old. I was ready to settle down
I would ask him for that title, but he would always so “no”
All the temptation that he was around
Was my first sign I needed to leave, but I didn’t want to go
I was so used to him; he started to become the only one I knew
The only one I wanted to talk to, he soon knew me inside and out
But his heart remained the same size, while mine grew
The sex fooled me; too young to know what lust was about
It didn’t bother me a bit though, because I wasn’t aware
I was feeding him with his favorite meal, sex
What he did, I did; it only seemed fair
It always started from the sweetest kisses on the neck
When we did it, we did it for hours
This is what made me believe what we had was love
Sometimes I’d look to him, as if he was some kind of high power
I looked up to him as if he was the man above
The years past, and he still wasn’t committed
I wanted the world to know that he was my man
But there were other girls involved, which he never admitted
They came in all colors: white, black, and tan
Being so far away, he couldn’t always get his meal from me
That’s where the pain comes into this relation
He did to them what he did to me when it was me he couldn’t see
I always believed every word he said; not once did I take caution
Weak was how you could define my young soul
When I did find out what he did, I always gave him another chance
I knew he didn’t care. He was one out of many in the pack of dholes
But it hurt, as if he stabbed through my heart with a lance
A few more years past, and I finally gave in
I learned he didn’t really love like he said he did
He didn’t want me like I wanted him. He loved my sin
Leaving him was the hardest thing ever. It was something I would always forbid
It took four years to learn that his actions speak louder than words
Forgive me Lord, for I was so dumb and naïve
The thought of him not loving me was so blurred
In my world, he was the Adam to my Eve
It’s over now. We ended it
No more him, no more me, no more us
Just to make it worse, he fixed his lips to call me a bitch
Never in my life again will I confuse my love for lust