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I couldn’t tell you the last time I left the house without makeup on



fill in, push up

suck in, throw up

too thin, sculpt that

too ugly, too fat



at times like this, the serpent's voice has never felt more alluring



a comfortable hideaway of Maybelline and Revlon

is like a warm blanket in the moments I feel coldest



days of inferiority and self consciousness end with the chimera of who I am washing down the drain

I am left with my tormenting reality



staring defeated at the view of my naked skin, I do not see myself



from a girl to a woman with the flick of a cat eye

innocence gone, anxieties amplified



the constant beckoning of insecurity’s open arms pull me closer

a contorted illusion of beauty that was once a no-man’s-land



is now the place i ease my mind



my face is a canvas

this fluid ounce of tan, my medium



staring accomplished at my work of art, I do not see myself



fill in, push up

suck in, throw up

too thin, sculpt that

too ugly, too fat



the sound of my heart’s aching cry for organic beauty

is soon alleviated by the remembrance that



I am beautiful

 

 

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