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"it's okay to be you"
"i won't judge"
"speak your mind"
but if i do, you will judge
i know you
i have lived with you my whole life
i know you
i know what you think about people
people like me
things like this simply can't be fixed
ignoring my problems won't help me get better
and neither will sugarcoating it
if i knew you would accept me
with all of my flaws
with all of my irregularities
maybe i could be more open
but you won't
so i'll just wait it out
shut up inside my own head
my own closet
my goals and ideas are relevant
i plan on accomplishing them
i'll take all of the steps
i'll do anything to reach my goal
and honestly
what's money to someone doing what they love?
but not yet
not yet
because i'm not confident in you
there is a reason why i am out online
but not in my own home life
and that reason
is you
but just you wait
sooner than you think
i'll move out
i'll meet new people
i'll be a new person
i'll befriend whomever i'll befriend
and if by some chance
i fall in love
i'll love whomever i'll love
i'll come out to you with open arms
in hopes that your arms will be open, too
i'll chase my dreams
and even if i don't achieve them
and even if life doesn't turn out the way i thought
i'll die knowing that i tried
and i lived loudly
and i loved intensely
but for now
i'm stuck here
and a little support wouldn't hurt