Cigarette Kisses
I love you in the simplest ways I can imagine
I fell for every shattered puzzle piece put back together like shards bloodied by broken dreams
And each cut that I got felt so right
I never even felt the pain
You're salt in the wound
Stinging with pain so addicting that it no longer hurts
You feel so right
I love dancing in your rain
In the storm that clouds your mind
That lightning of inspiration that flashes trough my darkness like daylight is mesmerizing
Your shouts of thunder, pouring from your mouth like fog
It's music to my ears that have been deaf to the sound of love for too long
I love how your rain is my music
Cooling me down in my inferno of emotions that threaten to burn my existence to ash
I love the sound that it makes with your voice its lyrics
Such a soothing lullaby, I have never heard before
Poetry is incomparable to the beauty of cluttered words that tumble from your lips
I fell in love with those lips
That soft opening to your opinions, your thoughts, your mind
It is my doorway into what makes you you; and it is perfect
I love its kisses that tumble as often as cluttered words
The next more beautiful than the previous
I'll never forget the feel of it on my skin
Like cigarettes burning lightly
Leaving impressions that scar my heart
The smoke just as sweet, just as unforgettable
You are just as unforgettable as choking on sweet air
You are my air and my poison
A drug that I cannot leave behind for any reason
And I fell so in love with the dreams and reality you palce in my hands, each equally heavy
Each equally painful
I fell in love with the way reality hits me from your eyes,
Like tons of bricks raining through your storm
I fell in love with every part of you
Your voice, touch breath, song, storm, smoke, love
The way you kiss, smell, sound, taste
Your taste, it lingers in dreams
How you move and work and dream
How you watch me and how you don't
How you put my heart together just to twist it slowly
The way you touch me slowly
The way you move with me slowly
So slowly I feel pleasure in the place of pain
I don't even realize it hurts
The sweet sugar-coating an anesthesia that lets me forget my past and nightmares
Even my demons can no longer control me
Only my need for you
My want for you
I want so much with you
Mornings made of messy hair and lazy sunlight kissing us as we kiss each other
Or time in your arms, like a panic room, strong and protective, impenetrable, undetectable
Minutes watching you work, focus on something that won't matter in years to come
Holding hands with you, fingers interetwined like vines on old memories long forgotten
Tightly bound
I want the world with you, through eyes of rational and emotional,
My rock beneath my feet to steady my ship
Dancing in the rain with no one else to hear our laughter mix with the music of the sea
I want a lifetime of chances, dances, of cool rain on my skin
I want to swim with the Fish in the colors of the wind and leave behind
Every thing, every shard, every person and thought and word that ever broke my heart
Except the ones that came from you with a bow on top
I want to leave behind the world with you
Dance in your rain
Feel again
Cool the inferno that threatens my mind
There is light in the darkness you've gifted yourself
And if it is not mine, then there is nothing here for me
I fell in love with every single thing you gave me, whether it be good or bad
Water or poison
You are the drug that soothes my realities
Without you
Without you...
A world without you is nothing
This poem, my words cannot describe a world without you
It cannot exist, not even in imagination
Because if there is a world, even remotely, that exists without the pleasure of your presence
Then I cease to exist, disappear
Turn to ash and wash away with your rain
I fell for every drop of laughter that you let fall onto my skin and mind
I love you in the simplest way I can imagine.