I don't want to move on

I really don't want to go 

I can't leave you for four years

You're going to change so much

You won't be the same

Will you remember me?

I'm too scared to find out

I'm not ready to let go yet

You've been my everything

You've been my pride and joy

I don't know how I can manage without you

I once thought I didn't want to

But that has changed so much

Now, I need to better myself for you

So I have to leave

But, I have to do it for me

I need to do this for you

This means so much to me

The experience 

The change

The new enviorment

My career desires

It's a dream I would like to persue

You might see it as 

It doesn't include you

Let me explain how that is not true

You're my everything 

My world

My sun and my moon

My other half

My meaning of life

The only thing I live for

You're the greatest thing in my life

The best thing that has happened to my life

You're my little boy

The on that came too soo

My little boy that has changed everything

My...... My little Adrian

Born on late November day

2011

The whole nine months carrying you

Three months with side pains

Unable to sit for long

Seven hours in pain

Waiting for your arrival

Less than twenty minutes of struggle

Right down to that very minute

8:48 P.M.

8 pounds 2 ounces

21 1/2 inches long

Is when my world stopped

When all that mattered was you

But, now I have to leave

"Don't worry baby. It's only for a while. I'll be back soon."

I have to go away

I will miss everything

But, I'll make everything better

Not only for my but for you

I'm not going to make myself a statistic!

I'm going to prove it wrong!

I'm going to do what I have to do

But I need to be strong

Pull through

I just HAVE to!

You're my main motivation

You're what's giving me that final push

"Don't worry my love.

Mommy will see you soon."