My life is like a room lit by candle light, it seems bright in the immediate area but the corners still stay dark, shrouded by shadows hiding the unknown, the unforeseen, a danger that cannot be seen, a curse that follows me no matter where I go, what I do, there is no perfect ending there is always a darkened unforeseen variable that brings every thing I've worked for down, broken and crumbling, in a smoking ruins, if only my candle light had been a little brighter, if it's flame could reach just a bit farther, I could have avoided it and it would still be like it used to be, and I wouldn't be here in this darkened, black room, lit by my fading candle light its wick is down to its last final minutes, its about to go out, and the dark will finally have its victory, I'm so sorry I promised that I would fulfill all your expectations, honestly I had doubts the entire time and that’s where it begun, I sowed the seeds and let them grow into a plantation of mistakes unforeseen by my candle light, it wasn't bright enough to light my way to guide me through the dark, I'm so sorry I got here too late to save you, to be there for you, from the bottom of my heart, I am sorry I couldn't save you like I promised I would, so long ago, but it seems like it was only yesterday that I found you, crying for your mother, who had left you to fend for yourself, a cruel punishment for one so young, so I took you in and made sure you where fed and had a home to call your own, a bed to lay down to rest in, and someone who cared for you, and I promised to protect you, that I would not let anyone hurt you, and I failed, I couldn't get here in time, you slipped through my fingers and now you lie there in a puddle of blood, and a face of fear, so from the bottom of my heart I'm sorry I broke my promise, my vow to protect you, I failed, I lied, I let you slip through my fingers a mistake that all my own fault, I shouldn't have been so careless, so liberal, so I'm sorry, I couldn't see this in my candle light, it didn't reach far enough to see this, if I just was a little bit faster, a little bit stronger, smarter maybe I could have found a way to save you, but I failed you, I broke my promise, I wasn't there when you needed me most, when you called my name, in desperation, in the hopes I would round the corner  just in time to save you, but I was not there, I failed to find my way to you, I was too late to save, you so as I cry for what I've lost, for what I promised and could not keep, so I weep, something I haven't done since I met you, my face soaked with tears lit by my dying candles light, they fall from my cheeks, as I lean over my daughter fallen body, I weep as I look at my greatest failure yet, my promise I broke to keep her safe, to make sure she had a better life than me to be something great, when I wasted my life away, so I cry, my sorrows and woes, in the candle light and ask why do such a thing to a girl who been through so much to make her life end so abruptly when it was finally getting better but, to my dismay even though I knew it wouldn't be answered, I prayed and asked god why he would do this to here to take her life away from her when it was just getting better, why rip her away when she was finally getting the life she so very wanted, why take her and not me, she had so much to live for, so much potential, so much to give this world, so why take her away when it was finally getting better I ask one last time as my candle light fades out, its life long since over, just clinging on by fibers, it makes one last gasp, one final attempt to push back the black abyss that is the shadows that are in the corner of the room, in the closet, to show the unknown that lies in the darkened room when you open the door, and in kind I ask one final time why take her away, why rip her from this place when things where finally going great, why take her away when she had no-one their in her final moments why make her die alone, what did she do to deserve this fate, if anyone deserves it is me, because I failed to protect her, I broke my promise, my vow to make her life better, to give her the life I couldn't achieve to make sure that she was happy, so I ask why take her away when everything was going so great, are my final words before darkness fades in and surrounds me, shrouding me in shadows and the unknown takes me away, leaving her body to be left unknown, un-mourned, to rot away in this forsaken place, a fate she doesn’t deserve, she deserves so much better, she did nothing to go out this way, but that is how life goes, and it chose to make her another Jane doe a forgotten, abandoned soul, who died never knowing if they would be found if they would be remembered, or even mourned, a cruel fate that seems to mark this place as it favorite, lining its darkened hallways with sadness, grief and misery, its only passenger in its halls is me and the other lost souls, lost to its twisted games, if only my candle could've reached a little farther, if I had been a little faster, been a little stronger, a little smarter I could have made it in time to save her, to be there for her when she needed me most. A host of mistakes I made led her to this place and she led me here, to the place where we die at, my final failure, my biggest mistake, that sealed her fate, a mistake I've made before, a flaw I should have fixed before, I even thought I could protect her, if I couldn't even protect myself from,….. Me and then the darkness consumes me, a final tear rolls down my cheeks as I join the lost souls that forever wander this places dark and abandoned hallways, lit by a single ghostly candle, trying its best to push back the darkness a futile attempt, its wick, its flame are soon to go out, and turn this poor soul into another victim of this forsaken place, that so many people use it as their final resting place, to wander endlessly for an eternity, my final thoughts as I start my cold aimless, pointless wander around this place.