Born Bendy Not Straight


For as long as i can remember

I have always been attracted to females

But I had always been told that being attracted to the same-sex was



a sin

just not right.

So I pretended I didn't have these feeling,

Since they were so wrong

Eventually they'd just go away

But they never did

I used to care what people thought of me.

Believe what my father had told me

I wished I wasn't who I was

I wanted to be anyone else. 

But then I realized that this is me and I'm never going to change.

It was hard accepting who I am

Even harder listening to what people have to say about homosexuals

It breaks my heart

Because for the longest time I was afraid

Terrified to tell people that I was in love

Infatuated with a girl

People still tell me that it's wrong

That the bible says so

But God made me this way

I didn't just wake up one morning and decide I was going to be bisexual

That's not how it works

I tried to change

I tried not to feel those feelings

Not to be a sinner

Not to be a dyke

Not to be confused

Now I'm sure that this is me

This will always be me

And if anyone has an issue with that 

Then I no longer need them in my life.

I once had a boyfriend who told me I was going to hell

Because of who I am

I remember crying and sobbing

All night

He thought I was weeping because I was having some sort of revelation 

He thought I could change

That I could flick a switch and be straight as a two by four

But that wasn't why I was crying at all

My bestfriend thought that there was something wrong with me

And that hurt more than anything

But I forgave him

Because he'll never understand

And that's okay

"We hold these truths to be self-evident,

That all men are created equal,

That they are endowed by their creator with certain unalienable rights,

That among these are Life, Liberty, and the Persuit of Happiness."

All anyone wants is to be happy

And yet I can't be with someone

Without getting sideways glances

Being told I'm going to hell

That I should change

That it's only a chouice

But I can't change 

This is who I am

Take it or leave it.


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