No one knows her feelings
no one knows her life
we all have our dealings
yet they are not always alike
she suffered from neglect
to a certain extent
it had it's effect
which caused a dent
her father had raped her
and she was ignored by her mother
who can deal with the pain that stirred?
just the thought makes me shudder
That child suffered more than I ever will
I never felt the feelings she felt
I don't want to, the though gives me chills
I respect the suffering that she dealt
If I was only there
I would make her feel worth something
Having no one that cared?
I'd rather be attacked by a million bee stings
Blue eyes she wanted?
Why not wish for love to at home to arise?
I would wish for that.
But she was young, and hopeless
and ended up searching bins like an alley cat
I wished for that when I was naive,
but you know what I want?
A heart that won't deceive.
Do I still want blue eyes?
No. Just a mentality that wilt defy. Defy a judgement that should not affect me. Defy what keeps me from being me.