I wish I was the best at something, anything !
I try hard but seem to fall short.
I am the good girl, able to perform many tasks well
But I am never the best.
I envy those who excel in one aspect of their life.
To be able to be the best at on thing is all I want
I don’t think I am asking for too much.
I am good in school
good at singing
good at drawing and painting
good at many things. But I wish to be more, to have one thing for me
Is it selfish to not want to share ?
I wish to have a talent for me, people will see it and think of me
I wish to be the person you think of when you see a painting
A great musical performance
A great report card.
I want just one for myself.
I am not picky
I feel as though I am the supporting character in the story of MY life.
To be the centre of attention in just one of the many things I am simply “good” at.
I look at those around me excelling in their lives
But as I reflect I see the shell of the person I could be.
Oh what to do!
It is easy to settle, but I am not one to give up.
I don’t think I am alone in this conversation.
To be The Best at one thing would bring me more joy than being “good” at the one.
Self growth comes with self love
And I guess before I become the best I need to see myself as