Backpack Full of Insicurity
Pretty
Skinny
Perfect
words that society chooses for us
You say
I run like a girl,
scream like a girl,
throw like a girl.
From the time life was more innocent to now
You've used these phrases
To build your gender
up
And push mine down.
Always wondering
Why can't
I
Her
we
be treated the same way as
you?
To have the same freedom to be passed to in PE
To have the same freedom to dress how we please
And not have to worry about what the repercussions may be.
To have the same freedom to not have to feel
insecure about our bodies.
I'm asking you
Are we just supposed to
Sit on the sidelines and
Cheer you on at football games?
Do you expect us to
Stand around and
And choose whether or not to wear makeup based on if you like it
or not?
We don't care what you think.
And even if a small part of you
presumes that
We are
the weaker sex
Then you should know that
We are
not.
We are strong
We are brave
We are intelligent
And we are equal
When life was more innocent
I ignored the degrading words you shot at me
So I played my game
Like a girl
My curls sprung up and down
My orange pearl kept the beat
My feet struck the floor
And left black marks
On the back of your heart
Teaching myself to finally be free
To pass the ball from my hands to yours.
But I'm not done yet.
Because I want
you to know
What dress codes are teaching
you.
That you are allowed to be distracted by our choice of
clothing and attracted to how much of our skin it shows.
Dude, control yourself
Everyone has skin.
These codes are teaching
You that you are allowed to
act as animal roaming free from a cage
while I feel caged in my own skin.
I'm sorry
If my body distracts
your actions
In class
If my shorts are too short
Or my bra strap is showing
You should be sorry
But I don't care what you say
I'm just going to keep going
Thoughtful
Kind
Hard-working
Words that I choose for me
When life was more innocent
counting 1, 2, 3
were just numbers
now, it rates
my body,
My Hair
My makeup,
Me.
4, 5, 6
Things we cannot
Will not
Never will fix
7, 8, 9
My body will always be mine
These ratings should be forgo-10
In my eyes.
It's not a surprise that you continue to
Rate
Evaluate
And judge us
From 1-10
Teaching us to dress for you
And not for success.
“Boys gave me a 6 and gave her a 10”
Forcing me to walk behind the footsteps of trends,
Creating boundaries for what I post on instagram
Deleting the memories because of my insecurity
You are asserted because I am introverted
I feel abandoned
Not accepted
Not tolerated
just Affected
You never advocated
You just advertised
Me
Across the inter-net
And I'm tired of not expressing myself because of what other people think of me.
I'm afraid someone is going to think I'm trying to be someone I'm not
even though
this is who I am.
I'm fearful people might think I'm trying too hard.
But I'm sick of being scared of what other people think of me.
There is no violence
But there shouldn't be such a
silence
Noiseless
Nothing
Pretty
Skinny
Perfect
Words that shouldn't define who you are
Thoughtful
kind
Hardworking
Words that are more meaningful to me.
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Chris Faith
Wild ride for sure. In the battle of the sexes I chose to sit it out. I found someone as anti-social as me eventually. There's two secrets to happiness in life. The first "Don't sweat the little stuff", the second "It's all little stuff" have fun.
odysseyloya
That was really good. Have you ever performed it because it would definetely fit in the spoken word category. it perfectly captures how I feel and I know my other girlfriends feel. It was really good.