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All because of a slip

A fall

A simple miscalucation of my feet and my world came tumbling down

As I lay there on the ground

Once again I became

That Girl

 

The same girl from all those years ago

Faithless

Hopeless

Dreamless

All of the things came just like before

But this time it was my body that said no more

All cuz I fell

 

But if you think about it I could never really stand that well

All because you made me think that I was broken 

That I was the one that was weak

 

But if you think about it you were right

Because my future started to get less bright

I started to believe you about my injury

 

So I tried to forget about you and the past

And I finally started to smile at last

So I started to feel better

 

But no one told me telling you was apart of the deal but I guess I had to

All because we could never really pay for stuff without you

So when I told you, you looked at me pitifully in the eyes

The same ones that always made me cry

 

You told me my career was over

And you made me feel even lower

But I held my ground

So all I had to do was not make a sound

You started to ask me all these questions like you really care

But all of these questions were too much for me to bare

 

The same voices that haunted my past came flooding back

You blamed me for so many things that I am starting to lose track

But yet you still blame me for the way for son died

And you act like you are the only one that cried

So again you made me that girl

You stomped on my pride 

And everything else that I had inside

 

And I'm tired

Tired of being that girl

The same you broke

The same girl that you always looked at as a joke

 

So yes. I guess you could call me that girl

 

But how dare you criticize me

Just look at what type of father you turned out to be

But that is none of my business

I'm gonna sit here and be the same broke girl you always thought I would be

Why can't you just let me be

Because it's clear that you never wanted me

 

But I'm strong

It won't take that long

So please get out of my way

Because you and I both know you will never stay

 

All because you made me that girl

 

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Me
My family
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