Approval
What stands between you and I?
It's grand and gathered with much thought and time
You think you see me, but what do you really see?
Maybe a reflection of how you want me to be
What you are actually seeing is not what is in me
What you see is what I bring past the curtain
What is left behind is thought about with care
You could dress like her, you are just like your father
You look like a whore, why even bother
Manipulation, control, nagging, rages, and rants
From all of these things sprang forth something beautiful
A delicate masterpiece that is ever-changing
So I step out from behind my masterpiece
Totally exposed, I present myself to you
But I must return back to my original place
I cannot reveal my true aspirations
I cannot go where I want or do what I want
I long to travel the world, meet many new people
Long to learn languages and help people
Long to do things that are good
But these things you don't approve of
Except they be in your agenda
I am kind, caring, compassionate, and loving
But you see none of this because of my masterpiece
This curtain would not be here if you approved of me
But, I digress, I will now retake my place
Take my place until it is safe to drop this curtain
But, until then, I will be waiting from behind my creation
Waiting on you, mom, to be happy with who I am