The devil only knows of this 
world so dark
A world where only some will go 
A world so cold
But not return, when will they learn
No man would boldly go to this place
to another side in a world
Stay Wide Awake
So dark and so cold my friends don't know. 

This other side of me There's a monster inside of me it's quite 
ugly and it frightens me
I'm crazy but it's alright with me man life can be so empty
"I'm hooked
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
Just one more time
Then that's it

A drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time 
It's in your soul 
doesn't care how fast you fall
You won't get no control
Every time I turn around
thinkin' I got it all figured out.
I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
It seems no matter what I do
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
I could crash and burn but maybe
At the end of this road I might catch a glimpse of me
So I won't worry about my timing

Run away
Save yourself, let it go
It's too late
Fading, fading.
Looks like I made a mess again
Heartbreak everywhere I step
Crying all alone
And it's all my fault, all my fault
At this rate I'm gonna end up alone
It's probably all my fault

Tired. 
that's how I feel right now,
Tired, 
Of everything around me
I smile 
But I don't feel a thing.
No.
Something's gone
I can feel it.
There's a hole 
Inside of me.
It's so cold, 
Slowly killing me,
I'm so far from where I need to be.
I've given up on faith, on everything 


It's all wrong
I'm unworthy
I can see you're above me
But I can be lovely given the chance
I see that you're torn
I know why you left
Must be hard living with ghosts, 
such an empty shell
I can't blame you myself
But I'm working on it
If I can't hold you 
Can I give you a kiss
just want a kiss
i need to know what it feels like to touch Something. 
Something so pure
something(someone)that has me so sure

Man I never though that I could ever be A drug addict.
nah, fuck that I can't have it happen to me.
But that's actually what has ended up happenin, 
a tragedy 
My life is full of empty promises
And broken dreams
I'm hoping things will look up
I feel discouraged hungry and malnourished
Living in this house with no furnace
no sign of it
These drugs are gonna catch up sooner or later
I'm so high that I might die if I go buy 
I don't wanna, but I gotta stay
All I can see is a bunch of smoke flyin'
Let me out of this place
I don't wanna, but I gotta say
These drugs really got a hold of me....
But fuck it, I'm on one you're on one too
So let's enjoy

Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes.
Shit, six hits won't even get me high no more
I'm going to try to get some more, 
I'm startin' to live like a recluse
yeah you're motherfuckin' right,
I'm still awake in the middle of the night,
I just take a couple more, I ain't slowin' down,
Almost in a coma.
Til I'm toppling from the top I'm not going to stop
All I can see is a bunch of smoke flyin'
And everybody's lookin' at you, "what you want me to do".


i guess im talkin to myself 
I aint talkin to no one else cause nobody there
i keep talking to myself,
why the fuck am I yellin at air!
"You're lying to yourself, you're slowly dying, you're denying
Your health is declining with your self-esteem, you're crying out for help
But instead of feeling sorry for yourself do something about it
Admit you got a problem you brain is clouded you pouted long enough
It isn't them it's you, you fuckin baby"
I'm fucking going crazy,
I feel like I'm losing control of myself
forgot who the fuck I was.
Don't know what I'm gonna do, but I just keep on going through changes.
deep inside, I'm dying, I am finally realizing I need help.
I can't do it by myself, too weak
Ask me why man I just don't know
I don't know what caused me to be this way
I don't know why I'm so, I'm so cold, mean things I don't mean to say
I don't know but I probably be this way 'til my dying day
I apologize even if I know its lies.