Alexithymia

Your words felt like medicine that day...

...but in the end, it gave me pain and greif.

 

Remember the day that we first spoke 

My heart, my heart, it grew a bit.

Once more I heard my ego say,

Please don't, please don't try a thing.

 

The weeks grew into months,

I begged, I begged for them to live.

And one day you said those magic words.

Did you really mean that?...

 

Thinking of those words you said,

You branded them in my heart and head.

But did you know they would scare me so?

Would you ever take them back and go?

The fire that once gave me warmth,

Has faded in my snow-cold heart.

The part where we could've been "we" turned back into "me."

 

I did all I could to understand

Just why, just why you said those things.

But if you had chose to pull me aside,

All my doubts, all my doubts would have died.

 

Why did I have to be that way?

My heart chose to close up that day.

I wish I could've said all I felt,

All my fears that I have dealt.

Do you not care for me at all?

My ears still wait for your strong call.

The "I" it turns to "fool" on my say.

I'll fade and fade.

 

As of now, I could just push you away

But it's my truth, it is my truth.

 

Thinking of those words you said,

You branded them in my heart and head.

All my fears that I have dealt.

I'm not sure what you've thought of this.

But if you think there won't be a second time,

Please just tell me, and leave me behind.

Now the part where we could've been "we" can slowly turn back into "me."

Into "me."

This poem is about: 
Me

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