Since you left I have changed.
I feel like crying over every little thing,
I swallow tears when I drop a book
I haven’t said much to my friends lately
so in their eyes everything is fine,
but I can only keep this in for so long before, I explode.
Something is physically wrong with me,
I get fatigued after walking home,
and I lay in my bed for minutes on end heavily breathing,
and as I lay there I wonder what went wrong.
Everyone zones out but I feel detached at times;
the world goes on around me and I can’t move,
voices are underwater,
I’m stuck in my head and I do not want to be there anymore.
There were times when I got so angry I would sob,
Times I would stand in the shower with my head down
crying and singing sad songs,
but now I don’t think of it.
I feel so heartless and empty.
At least when I cried,
I knew what I felt.