I have an adiction, It's not a normal adiction
Because unlike most adictions
It's not about always having something
It's about always having nothing
It's about needing something so normal
But not letting myself have it
It's about the control that I have over everything

My addiction is about craving something, but not letting me have it
Cause what good will come from giving into a craving

It's hard to admit
But the truth is
I'm such a hypocrithe
Because I'd rather hurt, than let you see