Nothing in this world makes sense anymore
I'm lost and confused and I can't stop crying
You're the one I love and I need you more than anything
Why can't you see that
I'm tired of hearing you're a beautiful girl and you deserve so much better
I'm tired of the it's okays and the stay strongs
No one understands
Clearly I'm screaming for help
Never did I really realize what I had until it was gone
I wish I could change time and redo all my mistakes maybe you'd still wanna be with me
I hate you for leaving
I know I'm a strong girl and that I've been through worse
How much longer do I have to stay strong until I can be happy?
If you can leave I guess I can too
It's time to tie up loose ends
It's time to be happy
With my final breath I kick the weight off my shoulders
I'm held up high
Yes this is goodbye

Nothing in this world makes sense anymore
I'm lost and confused and I can't stop crying
Right now I need you more than anything
We all love you why couldn't you see that
You were such a beautiful girl
You didn't deserve this
How could such a good day turn for the worst
It was all in a text that dropped my heart to the pit of my stomach
I'm tired of the "it's okays" and the "stay strongs"
No one understands
I hate you for leaving
My shoulder became an ocean of tears for those who mourned your loss
My phone became a safe haven
It was the late night calls and texts ranging from panic attacks to "it should of been me"s
I had to be the strong one for not me but for all
Seeing you again was like something out of a dream
Never did I think I'd ever be able to
I reach for your hand for some comfort you didn't look like yourself but you still look beautiful
Your hand was colder than the winter snow
Shivers went up my arm and down my spine
Not to quote you but never did I really realize what I had until till it was gone
I wish I could change time and redo all my mistakes maybe you'd still be here with us
Soon they laid you down for you eternal sleep
I'm sorry I wasn't there
I'm sorry I didn't try to save you
Know that I will always miss you and this isn't goodbye
It can't be I'm not ready

It's been months since you left
And I'm still not okay
I miss you a little more everyday
I always carry you with me
I still tell myself that you'll be back soon
Everyone says I'm wrong like I don't know it's not true
I still blame myself for not being there
I don't hate you anymore for leaving
Because now I know I'm blessed to have you on my side