It’s been one month, 31 days to be exact since I’ve heard from you.
I knew my protection plan inside and out, I knew the steps
I had to take in order to figure this out, in order to get you back out my life.
Only, when you actually returned, i was stopped in my steps and engulfed
with strife. I thought I was ready to let go, I really thought i was.
Life was great, I even think maybe I found my soul mate,
but history repeats itself and so do you and I.
I had imagined you had matured in these long 31 days, and I had hoped
you would understand and respect my wishes, but you didn't.
I expressed how I truly felt, I let it all out,
I guess I had thought you changed in these 31 days just as much as I,
but once again I was wrong, I always am.
It was the hardest thing to do but I uttered the words I never thought would be true.
I told you and wished you the very best, but next I said
I couldn't let myself fall back into this mess.
All the words I spoke were true, yet the message still wasn't getting through.
I could say over and over how I am not flattered by your words,
but the memories came back hitting me like a hurd.
You didn't even give me time to forget, the shape of your eyes
or the smell of our love, it was only 31 days, and I should have prayed.
Prayed that you would stay away and pray that you were okay.
I cannot lie I thought about crawling back to your lies,
I considered leaving my new guy,so that you and I could continue this flight.
Even after 31 days, you still left a scar on my heart,
it lingers and it stings and everything I feel is shame.
I really thought things would be okay.
By: Mya Guardino