I will remember 2015 as the year
I was obsessed with Starbucks and sadness.
When the coffee stains mixed
with tear stains on my notebooks.

The first time I had my heart broken.
And second, and third.
When I lost my best friend
and the loneliness was paralyzing.

The year that I fell into the trap
of the suffering artist.
But oh, the metaphors were beautiful.

The year that I lost sight
of what makes me happy.
But oh, the paintings showed it all.

The year the war inside my head
became a bloodbath.
But oh, the songs were divine.

I will remember 2015 as the year
that I realized what growing up meant.
And that I wanted nothing more
than to escape it.