1 in 5

1 in 5. 
That's the statistic. 1 in 5 women have been sexually assaulted or raped. 
I, I am that 1. I represent 1 in 5 victims of sexual assault and rape. 
My rape, it wasn't a violent one. 
On the contrary, it was filled with trust that would end in a broken promise of: "I won't force you." And "it's okay baby, you can trust me." 

You see, my rape, it wasn't a violent one. 

Even though I didn't have a knife to my neck, I had daggers in my back.

But we live in a culture where unless there was a struggle, my attack doesn't count. This culture thrives on "no is no" but what happens when you can't say no? What happens when the same hand you trusted is covering your mouth? 

You see, my rape wasn't a violent one.  According to this culture, I just "let the situation get out of hand."

We live in a society where euphemisms cover the truth. 
I am 1 in 5, but this statistic isn't accurate. This statistic doesn't cover the other victims, the ones that weren't physically touched. 
They have to deal with

A heart they didn't break, 

Trust they didn't burn,

A life they didn't take. 

Because you see, my rape wasn't a violent one, but my life will never be the same.

I am 1, but I tell a million stories.


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