0625
I realized that I have Something to Say
But Nothing to Say
I have something to say in a Moment,
that's deep and describes me in a Moment
But when I have the Pen and Paper to Say
a Moment exactly in a Moment how I felt, it's gone
But I'm a woman, discovering her own words, still
I'm using the words of other Women to
define how I feel at an exact Moment
I'm a woman, discovering my own inspiration
and Confidence, though I still look to other
Women for Inspiration
But I AM coming into my own
I'm not mature and experienced enough
to even Understand My Own Words
My words, always filled with a burning fire and passion in my mind, But
they never transfer to my paper in the
Same way
The passion might not be seen or
Understood but the Attitude is
always there
MY Attitude
My Own Words, burning holes in my head,
the color of the sun
Them, leaving my tongue like fire,
leaving a trail of Smoke behind them,
Lingering, the smell, the ash, that piece of darkness
blots out the already dark sky
Not only are my Words lingering for
that Instant, but leaving stains,
like grass in the jeans of the 5 year old that loves to be outside,
like red wine spilled on the white silk shirt of the woman at the party,
like the crimson rust left on the side of a car after a long winter of Salt filled streets
My Words burning in Their Brains
The EXACT same way they burn in my own
Burning
the way Hot Coffee kills the taste buds
the way Acid burns the skin
the way Desire burns the
Heart
My Words,
killing them softly, smoking their souls from their own bodies
Only to suck the air full of me
and My Words back into their Lungs
Gasping, as if they are waking from a Bad Dream
But 'My Words' are no Bad Dream
But the reality of a Woman
growing into her own Womanhood
Of a girl, leaving her childish
Moments of naivety behind to the
Moments of Being a Lady, though
I may be hurting inside,
Burning
Inside
Being able to leave My Notebook of Quotes
Written by others behind,
To slowly fill notebooks with My own
Capturing the Moment in the Moment
Capturing the colors painted across the sky
with a setting Sun in words
Capturing the sound of a bird's wing
carrying it against the Wind in words
Capturing the smell of the rain
before during and after the Storm in words
Capturing the feel of the puckered Skin
of a raw chicken breast on its way into the oven in words
Capturing the taste of his lips as I kiss
him Hello in words
Attempting to Capture nothing but LIFE
in Words
Leaving Me stumbling and in shock
like a fish out of water
flopping on the Deck of a boat with a hook still
through its lip trying to find its Way
back to the Sea
Leaving Me Speechless when I had
a whole Speech Prepared
Leaving Me Scared and Anxious when I know
something inside and out
Leaving Me to Be Me
Leaving Me to Carve My Words
into an Eternal Tree with a Plastic Spoon
Difficult, but not impossible
Leaving Me in the Hospital with
every single bone Broken from leaving
my Mark on this World
But not my spirit, my soul, my inner animal
That remains strong and fierce with
a passion, with Eyes Burning
My Words,
My Own Words,
Burning
(Like Catching a Snowflake on My Tongue
a Burning Moment?)