She is still very much alive
My grandmother's dupatta smells of jasmine
She shares stories about her golden days under the bright sun
Her contagious laughter brings memories of happy times
We lose track of time
Our Kashmiri chai cools down
I hear the Azan and my grandmother smiles
Two chicks are chirping around my feet as I grab her lotta from the chickens den
She performs wudu as I wait by the charpai
We both pray together, side by side, feet to feet
She showers me with duas after prayer
We admire the beautiful sherbet orange sky
We drink our now cold Kashmiri chai
She would reminisce on stories from her childhood
Now all I do is reminisce about the good moments with my grandmother
My grandmother, a woman who had a heart of gold and the strength of one hundred lions
My grandmother, a woman who against all odds, made her name known
My grandmother, a woman who was so selfless
My grandmother, a woman who blessed me with radical love
My grandmother, a woman
A woman with great power
A woman, like many women, who had to push away her dreams
Who was told to sacifice her aspirations for the sake of her family
I wish I spent more time learning from her
I wish I cherished those special moments with her more
I wish I asked her the history of our family and who I am
There are many wishes I have but she is gone
And there is nothing left of her
Except her pictures, dupattas, and her Quran
There is nothing left to do but pray and carry her treasure box full of stories with me
Her body may have died
But the memories of her live in my mind
To me, She is still very much alive