I’ve been through a lot in my life a lot of pain a lot of hurt a lot of asking why like why am I sitting here on this earth when everything I do gets twist and turned and everything I say makes something worse and everything I try just crash and burns man I don’t know when am I gonna learn when am I gonna learn and I gotta secret and it’s haunting me and if I let it go people are gonna disown me but I’m not no ready for rejection no no not me but in the Bible it says I’m living a sin and I wanna know would god let me in would he judge me for being who I am would he judge me for liking other men I wish I could change myself but I can’t though what am I gonna do I don’t know I could just end it all cause I want to I got my hand on the trigger and I’m about to shoot but I think about what I’m leaving behind but I gotta make a choice cause I’m wasting time I can’t bring myself to do it no not right now so ima just live and suffer till I die... Well it’s years later and I just wanna say I’m better than I was before now I can say that I love myself more and more the secrets out and it wasn’t that bad all I got was support and nobody was sad my life means something and I realized that because I AM ME and that’s all I can be.