I Used To
I used to think that what defined me was my brain
I had to outsmart those around me, even if it meant making enemies
I used to think that what defined me was how he touched me
I felt dirty and so wrong, but it was all my fault, so he said
I used to think that what defined me was my hair
Killing it with chemicals just so no one would ask me questions about my curls
I used to think that what defined me was my body
It's the only thing anyone noticed about me so I hid it
I used to think what defined me was my personality
When she was surprised I spoke and thought I was mute
I used to think so much I dimmed my own light and almost blew out my own flame for good
I used to think, but now I know
I know what I am, I know what defines me
I am what defines me
I hold the lighter that rekindles my flame
I gave the light a new strength to burn brighter than ever before
That light defines me, I am that light
I am my eyes when I sing in front of hundreds of people
I am my smile when I talk to my mother
I am my rapid heartbeat when I see him
I am my anger at the ignorance that plagues this world
I am my insecurities, I am my faults
I am me
And I refuse to be anyone else