I’m still trying to pinpoint the day when

Good night, I love you

turned into

You’re asleep already? Did you remember to feed the cats?

When

How was your day?

became

It’s too late for dinner, you already missed it

When they forgot

I existed for more than just chores

 

I’m still trying to pinpoint that day when

I stopped being their little girl

And instead became

A liability

Holding them back

Keeping the from their lives

 

I’m trying to remember the day

When I felt like I never wanted to again

Unwanted

Unloved

Invisible

When I felt like

I needed to run

 

Except this time there’s no escape

Nothing to do but wait

 

I’m trying to remember the day

When I realized

It was my fault

For idolizing them

For thinking everything was fine

 

The day I realized

I was falling

slipping

sliding

back

Into the Abyss