“her and she"

 

 

on an easy morning 

nothing like mourning that moment

for the rest of your mornings to come

the smell of rum on the lips

I’m always so very distant 

never wanted to be defined 

by my actions, the time alone i spent

with my broken mind, and a 

heart that manages to keep pumping its blood

it all just seemed like a dream, so quick i always 

seemed to miss her more than she missed me

she preferred sunsets, i never slept so 

 i watched them both, the sunlight 

always hurt my eyes from endless sleepless nights 

for countless days so my heart is set to the setting, 

but theres nothing like a sunrise

taking my eyes away from the dead

when i remember i tend to cry, it would seem

i would prefer her eyes instead, maybe just maybe

i miss the pain she gave me, the prick

she left to dig beneath my skin

which still robs me for gasps of breath, remains 

and for a moment in just that moment as i mourn

the prick becomes a memento of immense meaning 

i guess your pain never truly left my body

perhaps it was your blood that has stained me

perhaps the thought of you has sustained me

perhaps it was her bite that had sucked the life out of my veins

your smell your scent your spell, as i continue to dwell

why did god bring me so close, yet so very 

far away , to touch her skin , to feel her smile

she warmed my cold soul slow with her poison 

love is just as lethal, to dance with the (devil)

you must have first (lived) backwards 

when your forward is no longer for your word

and all you thought about was her

and in just a blink she was no longer on your road

so where am i supposed to put my eyes?we were so high

she made me feel, and that was enough that she made feel

because i was nothing but numb

now her image in my mind is so still, but i can still feel

so what if she loved me less than i loved her, as long

as she released the pressure before the stress reached my neck

she would always rub my back, but nothing more than that

ironically this would create even more tension, as heat arose 

i always ignored her need for attention because i loved suspense

anything but the ordinary, never ordinary love, maybe 

we never took off with much velocity but my love for you was dense, she would always catch me off guard at first glance 

i tried to escape from her for many days, but it seemed she went where i went, and i went where she went, even if i made my mind out of reach, she would find the place in space just in time

how can you run from what is in front and behind 

i would always catch her eye looking side to side

i guess i never thought that our hatred love would die

i guess i never thought of death 

when i would gaze into your dark eyes 

i pray one day when i awake that you 

would still be alive in me, just one more chance

just a little more spiteful romance 

just one more glance at those eyes

when they were still alive 

maybe i too should die, but i can’t stop living till I’ve lived

i love you, and that was never a lie  

 

 

 

-leo will