10:09PM
Loneliness
is a monster
budding in my heart
painful as love,
without benefit.
Clawing to get out
gasping, shuddering, shaking
screaming
let me out
let me in
I miss tracing circles on your skin
I miss the soft light
filtering in from your bedroom window
I miss pressing my ear
against your bare chest
hearing your heart beat
mine's made of glass
take it
and smash it
that's where my hope lived
take my voice
I'll scream until my throat tears
until it's raw
don't you love me at all?
swallow it down
don't let it rise
it's dark
sinister and heavy.
I could sit here forever
let the demons weather
my storms
sitting
silently
staring
not seeing
staying in bed
vicious thoughts in my head
don't you know you're alone
don't you know?
the storm creeps back in
high tides
in my eyes
lightning in my throat
let me out
let me in
please let me in
I've never felt more alone
and it's going to swallow me
the monster will see to my end
please
isn't somebody
anybody
there