What Must I Do

You was always their to the very end my dear lover
You had always been my friend even to the very end
You have a big part in my heart but it is time to let you go
This I do know  
I disappoint you or let you down some how in our life I see
It in your big brown eyes 
I do apologize for making you cry this makes my heart sight 
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
What must I do my friend ? 
What must I do my lover ?
Please take my hand and watch my tears fall hard
Let each tear that falls touch your heart  
I saw the end before we'd begun,
I saw your hurt all that time that another gave
I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won
Someone so wonderful so full of love to give 
But it was not for me to clam  
You gave our love to another under the law of pain 
Of one night of lust that is what end us
I took what's mine by eternal right
Took your soul out into the night
I walked alone hoping that this pain will soon end
My dear friend 
My ex lover 
It may be over but it won't stop there 
You will always be in my dreams in my life 
When everything end's
I am here for you if you'd only care to see 
what you had meant to me
You touched my heart you touched my soul
But then you cut me deep and made me bleed
Why is it you can't see what you had done to me
You changed my life and all my goals
At one time you made me whole 
But that had all end in just one night you given in
To your anger to your lust now look at us
Your love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you
I've kissed your lips and held your hand
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
But I have a heart and it is saying I must go 
I can no longer hang on to what could never be
And that would be you and me

Lilly Emery (c)