Alive but barely... staying breathing I lose myself in the constent meaning that I am me...  but who is me? a constant reminder of faliure and and over exaggerated feeling to another that I feel for. that doesnt love me for me.... Brother why dont you love me...

i sink deeper into my thoughts constantly thinking of what he said to me that day i'll always carry the pain of my brother saying basically "I Dissown you" all i wanted was a friend to keep me happy but what i got was a bully a devil... My so called brother...

But hes my brother man.I cant really hate my brother can I?. You ask for the unfiltered me and here i am just a shell'les can of what used to be me... But that was in the past and now im in the future living out the pain and agony of not being loved by the one that i looked up to the most but it hardely effects me now cause i found love in my friends and thats all the love i need.