Two Sides, One Coin
Dear other me,
I know you hear me
as I cry into the pillow
I know you see me
when I glance at my broken reflection
The numbness, it pains,
it's worse than a knife
The tears, exhausted,
I’ve used them all up
I want you to know
I’m not afraid anymore
I still hear your voice, yes,
but it’s only white noise
The darkness you brought,
the anxiety with which I suffered,
the depression that welcomed only Death,
the fear that I’d only be alone
You are nothing
I'm in control
You can’t hurt me anymore
I'm controlling these shaking hands
There are others
You tried to feed me lies
I'm still standing,
and they're all still by my side
Your lies, deceit,
all that you wrought
Only now I realize what you are
and what you’re not
You are a coward
You are not any smarter
You are a liar
You are not my protector
You are an assassin
You are not good at your job
You are my demon
You are not me